again and again

words fail me all the time, i don't even feel like talking.


I can't calm down at all,
panic is what panic feels like.
Can't we just stay silent?
Speaking now seems far too violent.

truth

I've been wearing socks lately.
I never used to wear socks.

In love, once again...

I think this blog may have become a dedication to everyone i have a crush on. I honestly do not mind. These two men have stolen my heart...

have you ever...

have you ever woken up next to someone and been afraid to look at them?
not because of what you look like, or because you feel ashamed. i think the reason is that you wish they were someone else.

nat king cole

always makes me feel the way i want to feel.
what a man.
what an abosolute charmer.
such a dreamy smooth voice...lull me to sleep.

...

I expect other people to care about things, life and people as much as i do. It leads to disapoinment. I have learnt my lessons from life experiences. I have learnt to accept that other people will not feel things as i do or care as much as i do. It doesn't mean that they are bad people, but when they are such a big part of my life it hurts sometimes.

It can be tiring to change my beleifs and reactions towards things, i can create the illusion of not being upset or disapointed. But over time it dwells on me.

I just can't understand how people can make the choices they do. Have the 'friends' they have. Where have all the genuine people gone? Where has the trust gone? I feel like there is a game going on here. Not a friendly game. It's a game for cheats and manipulators. I choose not to play. I know i made the right choice. Why do people want to be a part of that?

Ignoance is not bliss.

Girl Crushes

Oh me oh my oh me oh my oh me oh my!
I think these girls are utterly adorable.
They know femininity, which is what being a lady is all about.
No trash, just pure.

feeling nostalgic